It’s been a long week in my world. My husband’s family lost two of their own, fathers and grandfathers, who were greatly loved and will be greatly missed, but leave great legacies in the children they raised. Then yesterday, I woke up to the news that the seven year old daughter of a friend, an amazing little girl with a smile to rival Maura’s, passed away suddenly.
Alyssa was the darling of our online community of sewers and crafters and yarnaholics. We were there when she was born, when they realized that something more was going on with her, and were there throughout the next seven years, as we watched Alyssa defy odds and grow and thrive and overcome challenges with a smile on her face and two proud parents behind her, smiling as well. She was an amazing little girl who touched so many of us, and now we are stunned by her sudden loss. These times make a person feel helpless, so we’re doing what we can to help out her family by fundraising for funeral expenses. I don’t have a lot to share, but I can share the links - to make a donation simply either send money via PayPal to FundForAlyssa at gmail.com (replace “at” with @, remove spaces of course) or you can go through the Go Fund Me that has been set up: http://www.gofundme.com/c5wyn0 – every little helps, and all is appreciated.
Needless to say, I spent part of yesterday snuggling Maura. Maura loves snuggle time, and being spoiled, and so she was just fine with all the extra attention. We watched My Little Pony and she stole my Kit Kat bar, and still, she got to be princess for the day.
This morning, I woke up and realized I had no milk for my coffee. Maura was watching “The Magic School Bus” on my computer, which I had plans for. Of course, my computer plans also contained “Drinking coffee while at computer”, so I lured her away from said computer with a trip to Starbucks.
Maura was delighted with the idea of Starbucks, and I am still delighted by the fact that the closest one is a drive-thru. I placed our order and Maura giggled at something. I asked her what she saw, and she said “Coffee!” I laughed. Yes, there was coffee. I was impressed with the answer, and once again wondered if the seizure medication weaning we’re going through is allowing her brain to move a bit faster.
When we returned home, I used the moment to tell her I needed my computer, and she could use her iPad to watch her shows. She got dramatic, sobbing as she threw her arms around me. I’m used to her high dramas, and just laughed, gave her a kiss on the head, and said “I still love you.”
“I love you too.” she responded.
It was a little moment. A little moment in time we’ve done a million times. She gets dramatic and cries and hugs me, and I tell her I love her.
But this time, I got words back.
This is only the second time in 11 years I’ve gotten an “I love you” from Maura. I know she loves me, words aren’t necessary, but today? Today they were much appreciated.
Oh, she still didn’t get my computer. I’m not that much of a softie! But after extra-long squeeze, she happily settled down with her “coffee”, muffin and iPad, and was all better. And after a week of anxiety and sadness, I’m feeling better too. Four little words, one little moment, now forever in my memories.