Right now, I can almost see all the words swirling in my head. I just don’t seem able to find the time to sit down and write anymore though. Well, time and motivation.
I’m just going to assume it’s an effect of the moving process. There are a bajillion and thirty-seven things for me to do. So obviously, I don’t want to do any of it. I have that type of personality where I can be busy and productive for days, then turn into a sloth for a few days.
I’m in sloth-phase right now.
Because once Maura comes through that front door, my afternoons and evenings are spent making sure she doesn’t go into hurricane mode. Or screechy meltdown mode. Last night, we sat on the couch eating raspberries while waiting for dinner to finish, because she had gotten hangry (you know, so hungry, you get angry? Hangry.) Having to be on duty from 2:45 until 9 pm makes me even less inclined to be busy during the school hours. Because I know I’m going to be constantly on the move, hopping up and down, chasing after Maura.
Eventually though, I will start feeling a bit guilty for being such a sloth and get something done. Usually laundry. So. Much. Laundry. But right now, even laundry is a bit futile of a task – our week of summer has ended, we’re back to rain and cloudy and just chilly enough that nothing dries well. I swear, after two days, my socks were still damp.
It’s hard to be productive when your socks are damp.
But when I pause for breath, or ponder life while hanging all those socks up to dry, I think about what I want to write. See, I’d gotten to my next word goal in the thing I’m working on, only to realize I didn’t want it to go in that direction. 3,000 words taken out (and saved elsewhere, just in case.) I’ve been trying to figure out how to get these characters to where they need to go, to the point I know I want them to get.
Hence the swirling words in my head.
I’m ready for life to get a little more settled down. I know that may not be until September. In the meantime, I have to clean and organize and do laundry and make sure we have the right documents on hand for the move and fill out end of school year paperwork and fill prescriptions and go to graduations…on top of the daily tending, dressing, laundering, caring of the children. And of course, buying all the food.
Which is what I should be doing right now.
But I think maybe, I’ll leave the house and go to Starbucks and write for a bit. I have all weekend for those other things.